http://justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] slidingmoments2012-04-09 06:47 pm
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Why can't I be Dorothy and whipped away to a world where there's no tornado?
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[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-11 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
Not entirely yet. He had a bad head injury when he was younger and has gotten them ever since, but he didn't elaborate.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-11 10:57 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe he will once he gets to trust you some more. He knows everything about you now. Eventually he'll reciprocate.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-11 11:05 am (UTC)(link)
He said he wasn't ready. He admitted to me has things from his past he wants to tell me one day. I did say the same to him, but I doubt he expected any of this. I scared the hell out of him, I know I did.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-12 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
But he's still there. He's still by your side. Hang onto that.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-12 09:46 am (UTC)(link)
I am. At least, I really want to. I'm trying to figure out how to warm him how hard the treatment is. I have a six hour drive to try and work it out.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-14 06:57 am (UTC)(link)
You have six hours from hell if it all goes wrong too... But I'm sure it won't, of course it won't. Just ignore me.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-14 04:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh brilliant. Thank you that. I'm going to tell him it's a bad idea.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
No, no. Don't do that! I said ignore me. Seriously. I'm old and have early on set. I don't know what I'm talking about.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 09:06 am (UTC)(link)
You've been telling me for years that I SHOULD listen to you! Are you telling me it's all been bullshit?!

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 09:21 am (UTC)(link)
No, just don't pay attention to the previous five minutes. Everything else still stands.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 09:28 am (UTC)(link)
What did you mean by that, though? You think it's all going to screw up.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
No, no. That's not it at all. I just think it's a hard conversation to have and if you have it in the car you have to brace yourself for an even harder trip. And no that it won't be the end of the world.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
It's already going to be the hardest trip of my life. If I don't go, I'll never go. He needs to know some of the details. All he knows is that I'm a giant asshole who carries laxatives around on dates and lies to him.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
I highly doubt that's all he knows. He wouldn't be with you if that was it. You're more than a giant asshole.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 10:01 am (UTC)(link)
Everything else he knows what as farce. Now he has to learn about the real me, and I don't think he's going to like me very much. I don't even like me.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 10:15 am (UTC)(link)
I like you just fine, but I have the wrong body parts. He's going to like you, and he'll like even more that you're honest.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 10:23 am (UTC)(link)
If I don't make it to Jacksonville, you know he's dumped me on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
Then at least grab your cell and call me for help.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 10:40 am (UTC)(link)
I'm hoping the fact he loves me will give me a bit of a leg up to at least get through the full trip.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 10:49 am (UTC)(link)
I'll keep my fingers crossed, but call if you need anything. I will make up for being a shitty hag right now.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know what I need. It's like my brain has spontaneously combusted. I went to his place at 3am in the pouring rain with no coat or umbrella. It was like a scene out of a bad romantic comedy.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 11:17 am (UTC)(link)
Or a scene out of the most amazing moment of your life. I still have yet to have a rain kiss. I feel denied.

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
No, it wasn't really on that level. It took all my guts to tell him I was sick and then trying not to pass out. Cuddling in his bed was the best bit.

[identity profile] breaksniceguys.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 11:33 am (UTC)(link)
So this guy really does mean the world to you?

[identity profile] justbeingaqueen.livejournal.com 2012-04-15 11:41 am (UTC)(link)
I still don't know why he wants me, but he's the most amazing person I've ever met. He's just... beautiful. In every way. I don't deserve him.
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