Kurt started to twist the edge of the blanket through his fingers. "I'm really trying. He just keeps surprising me, but I don't know whether it's because it's just how he is naturally, or if it's because I'm trying to look for bad things in my head all the time. I slipped on our date. He paid for this amazing meal, and I was so engrossed in him and what he was saying, that I was stuffing it in my mouth like nothing else, and I..." He shook his head, turning his eyes to the ceiling when the guilt washed over him. "He makes me wonder what it would be like to be like everyone else and have something like sex just be an every day part of life, but then I think about me doing it, and I feel gross again."

"Yeah, but you and Cameron always had an understand that he would be the primary parent, so to speak. It works what you have, but Lachlan is for him. You always said that. I've never heard you really talk about wanting a family all of your own from a relationship before. I guess we're both facing scary shit here," he murmured, forehead creasing in thought.