"And you blame me for that on some level. Taking Blaine's time away from him. Rachel, I..." Kurt paused and had to sigh, only because he did feel for her but it was more than obvious there was so much between the lines here she wasn't actually saying. It could be because she was deluded to it herself and didn't realise there was more playing deeper below the surface than she realised, or it could be because she wanted to keep things extremely concealed for some reason or another. "I need Blaine right now. It's really hard for me to admit to that, but it's time for me to start being honest. I know he and I haven't been together all that long in the grander scheme of things, but he's been like a saviour to me and right now, he's helping me more than I thought anyone really could. And so, so selflessly. That blows my mind. I don't think I have ever met anyone who is so unbelievably kind, caring and selfless as he is. Which is exactly why I have to tell you that you are so goddamn fucked in the head if you honestly believe that he would just shoved his friends out of his life because he's starting a relationship. You're talking crazy if you honestly believe he has no room left for you. He just didn't want to be around you when you were doing things like insulting me... who, like it or not, is who he wants to be with. And trust me, that still blows my mind most days."
He shook his head a little. "I can't tell you what to do or how to feel, Rachel. I actually hardly know you. This you, anyway. I didn't even much know the you I disliked back in school." There was a hesitant pause before he continued, though he hadn't missed a single thing she said and that was when something vital dawned on him quite starkly. "Are you saying that you don't regret that your first time was with Puck, but that you just wished he had wanted it to be special like you did...?"
He had always just thought Puck had lulled Rachel into a false sense of security with a few drinks and took her virginity when she was having a weak moment. He had no clue in the slightest that maybe the reason Rachel might have done it was because she had feelings for Puck and thought it would be the start of something. Which potentially meant she never had deeper feelings for Finn beyond a confused affection. It was a revelation that came as a shock, and he wasn't sure if that was what Rachel was implying at all but if it was... was there a chance she still had feelings for Puck even now, and that the reason why she was so upset and confused about just about everything was because that was never resolved for her? Was that why the guy who took her virginity in a less than personal encounter, knocked her up at 16, ruined her chances of a normal high school experience... ended up her best friend? If no relationship, maybe she thought that was the next best thing and then Blaine was in the mix because he was a package deal with Puck.
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He shook his head a little. "I can't tell you what to do or how to feel, Rachel. I actually hardly know you. This you, anyway. I didn't even much know the you I disliked back in school." There was a hesitant pause before he continued, though he hadn't missed a single thing she said and that was when something vital dawned on him quite starkly. "Are you saying that you don't regret that your first time was with Puck, but that you just wished he had wanted it to be special like you did...?"
He had always just thought Puck had lulled Rachel into a false sense of security with a few drinks and took her virginity when she was having a weak moment. He had no clue in the slightest that maybe the reason Rachel might have done it was because she had feelings for Puck and thought it would be the start of something. Which potentially meant she never had deeper feelings for Finn beyond a confused affection. It was a revelation that came as a shock, and he wasn't sure if that was what Rachel was implying at all but if it was... was there a chance she still had feelings for Puck even now, and that the reason why she was so upset and confused about just about everything was because that was never resolved for her? Was that why the guy who took her virginity in a less than personal encounter, knocked her up at 16, ruined her chances of a normal high school experience... ended up her best friend? If no relationship, maybe she thought that was the next best thing and then Blaine was in the mix because he was a package deal with Puck.