Rachel was still floored by how accommodating and patient Kurt was being. He was clearly feeling ill, and clearly tired, but he hadn't snapped at her, he hadn't turned her away at the door, hadn't called her names, or spewed old rivalry back in her face. She could see now that her stupid outburst at the mall was premature, that maybe he had just been bantering with her in the wake of their old rivalry and she took it all the wrong way? After all, she had no idea whatsoever what Kurt Hummel was like these days, years after school. All she knew was that one of her best friends had fallen in love with him, so that had to be a huge factor. Blaine saw something in Kurt to put his heart on the line here and Rachel knew it was more than time to let sleeping dogs lie and get the hell over the past. The Kurt sitting here in front of her was what she was dealing with, not the bitch back in school who was a fighter and where it was every man for himself.

She shook her head. "No. And just for the record, I have no intentions of getting up in your face and insulting you. I want to get to know you and make up for all the crap in the past. I realise I'm not the most tolerable person to be around, but it does mean a lot to me that you're sitting here listening to me right now. Blaine means a hell of a lot to me as a friend and the last thing I want to do is lose him for being a horrible person. Also, if there is anything I can do to help, or get you anything, I can. You just need to ask. I don't have a lot in my schedule lately. He... he cares about you. So, so much. He has always been like that, but I can see how special you are to him. I want you guys to work out, because I think you have got something with him that I've never had with anyone... or will ever get. You should hold onto that. I think any chance I had, I screwed it up. I screwed a lot of things up in my life," she admitted quietly, looking down at her hands.