"We were," he agreed. "But we went about it all the wrong way... Do you know how many scenes I've had to go to where kids had fucking offed themselves because of people like the person I used to be? Kids who got made fun of so much, they decided it wasn't worth being alive anymore? Not just gay kids, but fat kids, skinny kids, just... this... this way that kids have of hurting each other to make themselves look better. We were just like that, Rach. We didn't just hurt the people we hated, or the ones we were threatened by... We hurt our own friends... The people we loved. Those kids could just as easily have been Kurt, or even Finn, after what we did to them back then. I know we can't go back and undo the past, Rachel, but fuck... We've gotta make the future better, for Kurt and Blaine's sake."
Puck could all but see the wheels turning in Rachel's mind, and he knew her well enough to recognize the "what ifs" face. She got that look a lot these days, usually in relation to what if she'd made it on Broadway and hadn't ended up where she was now. But he knew without even asking that she was wondering a lot of what if's about Kurt, and that was hard to even imagine now that he knew the heartbreaking truth. "Maybe it's going to take a while... And you may be right. Maybe for now you just need to talk to Blaine, and assure him that, as soon as Kurt feels up to seeing you, you'd really like to apologize to him, too. In person. I don't think there's much you can do right now, babe... Just... Be there for Blaine. Let him know that... That you're here for him and for Kurt, too, if needed. There's only a lot of waiting. You can check in on Blainers from time to time. I don't know, Rach. I really don't. I don't think any of this is completely any one person's fault. I think it's a lot of years of the same hurtful bullshit going on, and in the end, it just became too much for him. It flares up... He has good days and bad days. But no, I don't think it's totally your fault. Besides... Laying blame doesn't help anybody. All we can do now is try to do the right things and help them out as we can, if we can. Sometimes we can't even do that. Just... wait to see what comes next. But either way... Do try to talk to B... And Kurt, too, when the time is right."
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Puck could all but see the wheels turning in Rachel's mind, and he knew her well enough to recognize the "what ifs" face. She got that look a lot these days, usually in relation to what if she'd made it on Broadway and hadn't ended up where she was now. But he knew without even asking that she was wondering a lot of what if's about Kurt, and that was hard to even imagine now that he knew the heartbreaking truth. "Maybe it's going to take a while... And you may be right. Maybe for now you just need to talk to Blaine, and assure him that, as soon as Kurt feels up to seeing you, you'd really like to apologize to him, too. In person. I don't think there's much you can do right now, babe... Just... Be there for Blaine. Let him know that... That you're here for him and for Kurt, too, if needed. There's only a lot of waiting. You can check in on Blainers from time to time. I don't know, Rach. I really don't. I don't think any of this is completely any one person's fault. I think it's a lot of years of the same hurtful bullshit going on, and in the end, it just became too much for him. It flares up... He has good days and bad days. But no, I don't think it's totally your fault. Besides... Laying blame doesn't help anybody. All we can do now is try to do the right things and help them out as we can, if we can. Sometimes we can't even do that. Just... wait to see what comes next. But either way... Do try to talk to B... And Kurt, too, when the time is right."